I would say that 2018 has been a year to find my real smile again. It is hard to hide behind a fake smile and cheerfulness. I am happy to say that I am emerging from a phase of my life where a fake smile and pretend happiness was my constant friend.
Sometimes it takes talking to professionals to get you to realize how far you have fallen down a path you never intended to go down. I recently hired a friend to take some photos and I am so glad that she captured an awesome shot of my girl and I. There is a genuine smile on my face in one photo that I am so glad is back.
I think back to earlier this year, in February I sought help from a couple professional people, they helped me see that I wasn’t where I wanted to be anymore. I am working on getting back there and that smile of mine is coming back naturally and more often. There are still days where I probably fake it until I make it. I am glad that it is less often and that I have found some really great joy again. Often times that joy comes from a small girl that lives in my house. I am glad that she and my hubby are so great at helping me find my smile.
The whole learning how to sleep better is likely the next thing I need to tackle. I am glad that 9 months into a new regime I am finding a happy real smile again. Next up working on solving the insomnia.